Tohuvabohu

I had some requests to expand on my previous blog about transitions and space. Maybe a good starting place is where I finished. In my previous blog, I ended with the Hebrew word “tohuvabohu.”

I use this word to quiet and focus my mind. I use it to bring myself back to my center where I am most grounded. I use this word because it means to become shapeless and formless. I find this comforting. Not easy.

Some call this meditation or mindfulness. Some call this prayer and some reflection. I prefer not to label it. I prefer to commit to it and practice it.

Even this social being has to find space for peace and quiet both literally and figuratively everyday. I am grumpy when I don’t get this space. It may only be brief or it may be for an hour but I am unapologetic for taking the minutes.

In making this space in my life, I free myself from the daily, routine constraints of my ego and all her friends: fear, doubt, envy, cynicism, compulsion, guilt. From this space is born my creative passion and my compassion for self and others.

Don’t get me wrong, sitting still, in silence can be down right humbling. My monkey mind will get going and I can’t keep up with all the shoulda, woulda, coulda, oughta’s in my head. This space is not for filling with thoughts or doing (which is difficult for this runner girl), this space is for emptying my mind to connect with what is true and real and authentic.

Author Gerald May says in this emptiness there is room for love to make its home in us. He wrote that spaciousness comes in three forms: First are the physical, geographic spaces. Second is time. And third is “spaciousness of soul.” This space is holy.

What would happen if you made this kind of space in your life? A place and time for you to get off the grid - disconnect from the phones, laptops, iPads, iPods, Kindles, televisions, Xboxes, GameCubes, PlayStations, Wii’s, work and even your family - so you can tune in intentionally to that holy place.

Think about it. Would you feel free from the tasks, agendas and demands that make up and take up your life? Or would you experience boredom, restlessness and a void?

I don’t know about you, but I like space both literally - elbow room - and metaphorically - peace. I look forward to weekends and vacations, but I tend to fill them up with thoughts and activities, instead of enjoying the quiet, stillness - spaciousness. So everyday I strive to put some holy space in my life along with my love of getting outside and moving.

So we must develop a respect for space in which there is nothing - tohuvabohu - and set it aside and hold it holy less we be filled up without actually having fulfillment.